Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Day 16 of Reverb14 - Wonder...

Today is Day 16 of Reverb14, hosted by the lovely Kat McNally who blogs at I Saw You Dancing. Check out the Reverb14 page HERE to join along and journal to the amazing prompts as we journal our way out of 2014...it's YOUR CHOICE to journal publicly or privately, as we all journal our way out of 2014 and plan for the new year ahead...

Today's Reverb14 prompt comes from Tracy Brisson and here is what she has to say:

Like many folks, I picture myself as a modern day Wonder Woman, trying to use my superpowers, to do lists and pure force to get what I want. In 2014, I found that my effort wasn’t often tied to my desired outcomes -- except when it was.

In 2015, is there something you’d like to try harder at because you believe it would make all the difference? 

Conversely, what is something you could stop trying so hard at that might actually help you manifest what you’d like?


IS there something I'd like to try harder at as I move forward in 2015?

To be honest, I'm not sure I want to be trying so hard at ANYTHING in my life anymore. This year I've been trying so hard to make a creative career take form, trying hard to make my new home FEEL like a home for me, and trying hard to maintain old friendships that, frankly, I'm pretty done with trying so hard with every little thing in my life, and this trying so hard seems to spill over into the smaller areas of my life so that it ALL feels like it's just plain HARD.

So I would rather STOP TRYING SO HARD at everything in my life and maybe, just maybe, I will manage to manifest some of the things I've been needing and wanting in my life that I've already journaled about here during Reverb14, and previously with August Moon, such as:

My intention is to continue with my creativity AND to search the company of other creative souls, because I know that those who serve their creative impulses are people of kindness, generosity and humor, things I need in my life right now since I'm having trouble remembering how to treat MYSELF with kindness, generosity and laughter

Plus this list for an 'ideal day' of work AND play:

Hosting a workshop with enthusiastic students who are eager to learn creative techniques
Creating some unique and art-full books that will be bought by excited customers
Having several sewing students I can pass along all my sewing knowledge to
Having a sewing project that is fun for me to work on and makes the client happy when completed
Touching base with blog buddies near and far
A delicious lunch in the company of creative friends
A quiet afternoon reading in my comfy chair and having a little nap!
An evening spent with my dear boyfriend whether having dinner at home or at a favorite restaurant

Of course, I'll add my wish for:

A wonderful creative studio and cozy inviting home

Some new rituals for my daily life, the prospect of which actually gets me excited:

A ritual or ceremony before I commence to work on creative projects
A ritual for bidding unwanted/unneeded clutter goodby
A ritual for deciding what to wear for the day
A ritual for completing creative projects, no matter how long it took to finish it!

And the most recent DO - MAKE - HAVE - BE lists I wrote last week:

Things I would like to DO more often:
Travel to my favorite places such as Ventura, The Huntington Library, South Pasadena farmers market, The Agoura Antiques Mart, bookstores, my favorite thrift shops

Things I would like to MAKE more often:
Recycled t-shirt dresses and skirts to wear, art-full jewelry for myself, hand bound books and journals I'd like to use for art journaling (or accomplishment recording!)

Things I would like to HAVE more often:
My favorite sandwich at my favorite French bistro, salads from Traders Joes, avacados, home baked chocolate chip cookies, lots and lots of HOT BUTTERED POPCORN!

OH! and MORE TIME to read books on my list, MORE TIME to make more hand-bound books and MORE TIME to make MORE ART!

Things I would like to BE more often:

BE organized in my studio

BE productive with my time

BE at ease with money

BE an inspiring creativity teacher

BE happier

Yes, these lists have been making my heart sing as I've been cobbling them together these past few months, but there is one question that begins to nag at me:

 Is it possible to let go of trying so hard yet have things manifest in one's life without effort??

I certainly don't know that answer to that question, but I'm willing to let go and find out!

3 comments:

Deborah Weber said...

Oh I love how you're pulling this all together Monica! And yes to less efforting and more ease.

Christine Gautreaux said...

Yes! Yes! Yes! Love this post Monica :)

Kat McNally said...

That last one is the million dollar question, my friend. Let me know when you find the answer! I suspect micro movements and self-compassion feature quite heavily. x