Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Day 17 of Reverb14 - Don't Be An A$$hole...

Today is Day 17 of Reverb14, hosted by the lovely Kat McNally who blogs at I Saw You Dancing. Check out the Reverb14 page HERE to join along and journal to the amazing prompts as we journal our way out of's YOUR CHOICE to journal publicly or privately, as we all journal our way out of 2014 and plan for the new year ahead...

Today's blog title is a BOLD one indeed! But when you learn what is behind today's prompt, given to us by Summer Pierre, it will certainly make more sense, so please read on to what Kat had to say about today's Reverb14 prompt:

 Apologies for the slightly controversial subject line! I stole it with love (and kind permission) from my friend Summer Pierre’s absolutely brilliant comic of the same title.  

I love the way she realises how hard she has been on her ideas, and how little room she has given them to play, make mistakes and evolve.

How can you stop being an a**hole, get out of your own way and make room for more of your magic to happen in 2015?

Well, I sure do know a little something about being hard on my creative ideas, in fact I'm pretty hard on myself for just about everything, but so many of us are, aren't we?

But the question posed here today on how I can stop getting out of MY OWN WAY to make more room for more of MY MAGIC to happen in 2015, hits the nail on the head in one way that I can think of:

I need to stop being so resentful of certain people in my life who don't even give a shit about me, and if you've read my 'biting back' post about them, it's pretty clear who the a$$holes are in this picture...

I have gotten stuck in my resentment about these people, who are not even related to me, due to their behavior, which I'm realizing is SO SELF CENTERED, it's not even about me! But I've let their selfishness get my goat and the lingering rage and resentment I begin to feel when presented with just the prospect of being in their presence is really wasting my precious energy and I really feel that this resentment  has been blocking me from the financial abundance I've been struggling with for the past few years.

Of course it's easy to say that its time to stop letting the a$$holes push my buttons by the very mention of them, but it's something else to really be able to let it all go so I can skip along my merry way and do the work I need to do in MY LIFE...

But it does make me wonder:

Am I really an a$$hole if I let REAL HONEST TO GOODNESS A$$HOLES get to me?? ;)

One other way I can 'stop being an a$$hole' and get out of my own way, is to start acting on the many creative ideas for online workshops I've had sitting on the back burners.

I know I have a lot of experience and expertise to share with others who are just starting to tread the path of creative expression, and its high time I begin to share all of it and its high time I begin to start creating little videos to share here on my blog so folks can stop by for some knowledge or inspiration or a creative idea to start their day.

It's time for me to begin sharing these ideas, even if its done 'imperfectly' with a messy creative studio, bad camera work and bad editing, but at least I'll be sharing my ideas and expertise in a way that I know is more immediate and accessible for others...

...and that is certainly worth something, isn't it??

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Day 16 of Reverb14 - Wonder...

Today is Day 16 of Reverb14, hosted by the lovely Kat McNally who blogs at I Saw You Dancing. Check out the Reverb14 page HERE to join along and journal to the amazing prompts as we journal our way out of's YOUR CHOICE to journal publicly or privately, as we all journal our way out of 2014 and plan for the new year ahead...

Today's Reverb14 prompt comes from Tracy Brisson and here is what she has to say:

Like many folks, I picture myself as a modern day Wonder Woman, trying to use my superpowers, to do lists and pure force to get what I want. In 2014, I found that my effort wasn’t often tied to my desired outcomes -- except when it was.

In 2015, is there something you’d like to try harder at because you believe it would make all the difference? 

Conversely, what is something you could stop trying so hard at that might actually help you manifest what you’d like?

IS there something I'd like to try harder at as I move forward in 2015?

To be honest, I'm not sure I want to be trying so hard at ANYTHING in my life anymore. This year I've been trying so hard to make a creative career take form, trying hard to make my new home FEEL like a home for me, and trying hard to maintain old friendships that, frankly, I'm pretty done with trying so hard with every little thing in my life, and this trying so hard seems to spill over into the smaller areas of my life so that it ALL feels like it's just plain HARD.

So I would rather STOP TRYING SO HARD at everything in my life and maybe, just maybe, I will manage to manifest some of the things I've been needing and wanting in my life that I've already journaled about here during Reverb14, and previously with August Moon, such as:

My intention is to continue with my creativity AND to search the company of other creative souls, because I know that those who serve their creative impulses are people of kindness, generosity and humor, things I need in my life right now since I'm having trouble remembering how to treat MYSELF with kindness, generosity and laughter

Plus this list for an 'ideal day' of work AND play:

Hosting a workshop with enthusiastic students who are eager to learn creative techniques
Creating some unique and art-full books that will be bought by excited customers
Having several sewing students I can pass along all my sewing knowledge to
Having a sewing project that is fun for me to work on and makes the client happy when completed
Touching base with blog buddies near and far
A delicious lunch in the company of creative friends
A quiet afternoon reading in my comfy chair and having a little nap!
An evening spent with my dear boyfriend whether having dinner at home or at a favorite restaurant

Of course, I'll add my wish for:

A wonderful creative studio and cozy inviting home

Some new rituals for my daily life, the prospect of which actually gets me excited:

A ritual or ceremony before I commence to work on creative projects
A ritual for bidding unwanted/unneeded clutter goodby
A ritual for deciding what to wear for the day
A ritual for completing creative projects, no matter how long it took to finish it!

And the most recent DO - MAKE - HAVE - BE lists I wrote last week:

Things I would like to DO more often:
Travel to my favorite places such as Ventura, The Huntington Library, South Pasadena farmers market, The Agoura Antiques Mart, bookstores, my favorite thrift shops

Things I would like to MAKE more often:
Recycled t-shirt dresses and skirts to wear, art-full jewelry for myself, hand bound books and journals I'd like to use for art journaling (or accomplishment recording!)

Things I would like to HAVE more often:
My favorite sandwich at my favorite French bistro, salads from Traders Joes, avacados, home baked chocolate chip cookies, lots and lots of HOT BUTTERED POPCORN!

OH! and MORE TIME to read books on my list, MORE TIME to make more hand-bound books and MORE TIME to make MORE ART!

Things I would like to BE more often:

BE organized in my studio

BE productive with my time

BE at ease with money

BE an inspiring creativity teacher

BE happier

Yes, these lists have been making my heart sing as I've been cobbling them together these past few months, but there is one question that begins to nag at me:

 Is it possible to let go of trying so hard yet have things manifest in one's life without effort??

I certainly don't know that answer to that question, but I'm willing to let go and find out!

Monday, December 15, 2014

Day 15 of Reverb14 - Do It Anyway...

Today is Day 15 of Reverb14, hosted by the lovely Kat McNally who blogs at I Saw You Dancing. Check out the Reverb14 page HERE to join along and journal to the amazing prompts as we journal our way out of's YOUR CHOICE to journal publicly or privately, as we all journal our way out of 2014 and plan for the new year ahead...

Here is what our lovely hostess writes for us today:

 As you may know, there are many fine reflective writing challenges on offer this time of year, some of which are also called Reverb.

A couple of days before launching my Reverb14, I noticed that a writer and photographer (whom I admire greatly) was about to launch a new program of her own. It was designed to encourage reflection on the year that’s passing. Logically, I could see how this would be the perfect supplement to the annual worksheets she produces that focus on manifesting brilliance in the new year.* 

But, of course, it wasn’t my logical mind that kicked in when I clapped eyes on her smart and pretty product.

It was the gremlins. Why would anyone want to join in my silly little thing when the other offerings are so amazing?

Of course, there was no question of backing out. I already had almost 100 sign-ups and eleven friends who’d gone to the trouble of writing some incredible prompts, just because I asked them.

But also: I’ve learnt over the years that the only way to get anywhere in life is just to notice what other people are doing, hear the gremlins, feel the fear and do it anyway. It never gets any easier but to keep on doing it is the point.

What are you really proud that you made happen in 2014, despite the gremlins? And what will you do anyway in 2015?

* Turns out, it’s a photography challenge! Just goes to show, best not to jump to conclusions, eh?

Well, my friend, I am extremely proud that I finally made a creative workshop (two, in fact!) happen for me in 2014 at my local community college, after two seasons of submitting my workshops and getting virtually no students to sign up for them...

I am extremely proud that I was able to teach a new creative workshop that I developed, and developed especially for a long time colleague and her sewing students this Spring. It may have been a small class of 5 students but it was great fun...

I am extremely proud that I reached out with an inquiry to teach at a venue that I've been hearing about this year and that my inquiry was met with enthusiasm! I am now negotiating a start date for one of my workshop offerings for the new year!

I am extremely proud that I participated in Seth Apter's challenge to share my Studio Table because I learned that almost every artist I encountered felt that their studio was an 'unholy' mess, yet when these same artists visited the studios of others, they were giddy and excited about the look of other studios, despite every one of us feeling that we had a messy and disorganized studio!

And because I learned this, I am going to resume teaching from my home studio, mess and all, as I move forward in 2015!

My studio will always be in need of cleaning and organization but if others can like it 'just as it is' I can learn to like this way too!

I am also extremely proud of the 2-layer cake I baked (my first cake!) for my dear boyfriend's birthday this weekend, which explains why I have been missing from the past few Reverb14 posts, but I am proud to say that it was a great (and DELICIOUS!) success!

Home baked cake with home made frosting and handmade cake decorations, all made by yours truly!

And I think baking more cakes and cupcakes will be something I do more of in 2015! ;)